Just me. Myself. My thoughts. In a place again with no emotion. Unsure. Yet still sure. Perhaps i stand confused. The emotions of a human are so unpredictable. In and out .. Up and down. You never know whats next. I love him. I hate him. I want him. I don't want to know him. Its like being alone with no one next to you to hear your every real thought. Confusion fogs the mind. And i wake up from the fog just to find it was only a moment, one moment of unsureness because once it cleared...He stood right there. Maybe I'm crazy or maybe I'm weird.NO. Perhaps I'm just human.
Signing off
Me Myself And My Thoughts.
Angela Simmons (Open diary 2011)
beautiful
ReplyDeleteLove it
ReplyDelete*searching for the like button* Nice choice of words... So real...
ReplyDeleteThought provoking post! To me LOVE = Letting Others Voluntarily Evolve. If you have to fake it, force it, control it, change it, etc. can it really be LOVE?!?
ReplyDeleteI feel you Ang!
ReplyDeletewow this is exactly how im feeling right now..
ReplyDeletestory of our lives *sigh*
ReplyDeleteDon't worry I feel the same ups and downs sometimes. I draw a blank in my mind... but somehow my heart is telling me don't pay that any mind anything with doubt will never make it. You have to let go... and love like you have never loved before because you will understand what drew us together is something we can’t explain because its destiny, don't run from love... its genuine. We are going to be just fine, hold onto us and don’t let go I’ll see you soon. I can feel you and we are so far apart I know this is real I can feel it in my soul when I think about us it’s like my heart is singing. I don’t know how we got this far but I feel like my heart belongs to you I have been alone since august of 2009 and I didn’t want to ever get married or even think about settling down again until this whole attraction this bond we have built has only lead me to believe that my gut instinct which kept me alive in the worst places is telling me I should trust and love you with all my heart. And I will do just that it is so empowering for a king to have his queen be with him every step of the way. Even when I have my little hiccups lol you were always there. So on my side I am so sure I do not question no more. In my heart and I suggest you do the same I promise to be your one and only and so much more. When I wake up every morning after my 3 hours of sleep I wish you were there just to even hold you close. I cant tell you in anymore words what I feel for you all I have to say is let us embark on this wonderful journey together trust is the key word. I wont do anything and I repeat anything to jeopardize our relationship because I may never find such a wonderful woman who genuinely cares for me. You are so selfless that is the virtue that I love about you the most. I am very convinced that when it’s all said and done you and i are going to last. Just give me an opportunity to give you my all and I promise you it will be all worth it in the end. Until we meet again..I’ll be dreaming about us see you soon.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry I feel the same ups and downs sometimes. I draw a blank in my mind... but somehow my heart is telling me don't pay that any mind anything with doubt will never make it. You have to let go... and love like you have never loved before because you will understand what drew us together is something we can’t explain because its destiny, don't run from love... its genuine. We are going to be just fine, hold onto us and don’t let go I’ll see you soon. I can feel you and we are so far apart I know this is real I can feel it in my soul when I think about us it’s like my heart is singing. I don’t know how we got this far but I feel like my heart belongs to you I have been alone since august of 2009 and I didn’t want to ever get married or even think about settling down again until this whole attraction this bond we have built has only lead me to believe that my gut instinct which kept me alive in the worst places is telling me I should trust and love you with all my heart. And I will do just that it is so empowering for a king to have his queen be with him every step of the way. Even when I have my little hiccups lol you were always there. So on my side I am so sure I do not question no more. In my heart and I suggest you do the same I promise to be your one and only and so much more. When I wake up every morning after my 3 hours of sleep I wish you were there just to even hold you close. I cant tell you in anymore words what I feel for you all I have to say is let us embark on this wonderful journey together trust is the key word. I wont do anything and I repeat anything to jeopardize our relationship because I may never find such a wonderful woman who genuinely cares for me. You are so selfless that is the virtue that I love about you the most. I am very convinced that when it’s all said and done you and i are going to last. Just give me an opportunity to give you my all and I promise you it will be all worth it in the end. Until we meet again..I’ll be dreaming about us see you soon.
ReplyDeletesounds like the life of a virgo. sometimes its good to follow your heart. but know when to use your head. happy new year!
ReplyDeleteAngela your emotion are up and down because you have become a star now and stars are part of the Universe and the universe is forever changing and forever evolving :o)
ReplyDeleteWow that's deep. I just wanted to let u know that u always inspired me as far as fashion..ur one of my favorite fashion icons but now I feel our personalities r identical. I rarely use my Twitter account but when I did go on there, U had just mention that u started a blog..And I LOVEEE IT, Ang!!! As far as love, I'm going thru the same..me and u r around the same age..I haven't had a boyfriend since high school so I know how u feel..but at the same time I don't go looking for it either bc when u look, it will NEVER be what u want..remember that. Let it come and it will : ) Keep up the good work and God Bless, My fav!
ReplyDeleteAngela, I really feel you on this i'm having the same crazy thoughts! Most of the time the "love" we want just isn't love. I can tell that you do love yourself enough to know whats right for you.Stay positive! (:nn
ReplyDeleteNice.
ReplyDeletelove it
ReplyDeleteI feel the same way sometimes actually i was feeling this extra last year
you only go through these times to make you the strong person you are. God will never give you more than u can bare. He is there when noone else is
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